on an agent's angst

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had this been any other day, i would have been ecstatic at the idea of finally broadcasting to real internet connection... i say "real" because all the internet connection i've been experiencing so far is that of the office... yes, i am no longer a bum... though i'm still working in yet another call center... fine... say whatever you want... but it is a real job that gives real dough... i don't ask for my living... i earn my keep... sigh... here i go again... getting defensive about my work all of a sudden... don't get me wrong... i am grateful for this job... gives my family more than enough medical benefits... i am earning more than my peers who righteously claim they have the better deal juz coz they have regular day jobs... and well... they say they use whatever little thing they have inside their pathetic little heads. argh. i can only wish them luck.
and please, please, please notice the sarcasm.


and yes i can rant all i want because this is my space, ok?!?


and i am grateful too!!!

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i'm back!

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my apologies for the lag of entries here... believe it or not, i actually forgot my password... and using a dummy email isn't exactly helpful...

hahahahahaha!

=)

no seriously... i really did forget my password... but i'm back now, ain't i?

=)

alot has happened... wish i'd have the time and energy to type... but i'm tired....
soooooooooo.......... so long for now, suckahsSsss!!!!!!!!
=)
missed me?
=D

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w-H-a-A-a-a-T-t ??!??? AGAIN??!?

for lack of vocab, i couldn't find the right words that could cause enough blood off my marshmallow-like freagin' sense of smellin'!!!!!
and i'm even wrong grammin' now!!!!
what the??!
what is happening??? didn't my rents instill enough morals in me??! and shouldn't i know better by now?? after what?!! --- 3 stupid dum-dum mistakes??!???
and i do it again??!?? even worse this time??!!!!!!!

shania said it best... or wuz it really Shania? or did she also copy it from someone else?
bah!
shame on you if you fool me once;
shame on ME if you fool me twice...

and i've become a dum-dum more than 3 f*ck*n' times!!!!
SO WHO'S COUNTIN'?????

on sunsets

this is a pic i took when we were on our way back to the city from Medellin.. i was trying to capture the sunset.. but since this pic was taken by someone who's a naivete' with photoshop using an automatic digital camera on a moving vehicle.. and one who's definitely NOT a professional photographer -- it was the best i could muster.

hehehe.. but looks good doesn't it? doEsn't IT?!?!

hehehehe...

looking at it, i was reminded of another person who appreciates sunsets just as much as i do. he used to tell me that it reminds him there's always tomorrow after the day's worries? he's a mountaineer which explains his love for sunsets and sunrises or what-have-you with nature stuff... i'm no mountaineer nor a nature-enthusiast... but i lurvvve sunsets... i think it gives more hope than sunrises do... in a krazy kinda way... and for lack of a better word... i think it's... well... kEwL... hahahaha... which then leads me to think that that makes its Creator kEwL too, right?

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thank You...

=)

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G a L L e R y

God broke the mold,
When he made this one I know
She's breathtaking but so much more
She walks in the room, your lungs closed
Making you never want to breathe again
Her boyfriend has got so much dough
So much ice his neck and wrist froze
Is he faithful to her? Hell no
But she chose to be with him, shorty

Tell me is the money worth your soul
Tell me what's the reason that you hold on
When you know that dude has a whole wall of 'em just like you
And girl you're just way too fine
Gotta be treated as one of a kind
Girl Use yOur miNd
Don't be just another dime

Because I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be,
iN hiS gALLeRy
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
iN hiS gALLeRy

She's so confused
She knows she deserves more
Someone who will love and adore
But his money's hard to ignore
She really doesn't know what to do
Girl it's just a matter of time
Before he finds another more fine
After he's done dulling your shine
yOu'Re oUt the dOor & hE's tHroUgh wiTh yOu

You're a masterpiece
I know that he
Can't appreciate your beauty
Don't let him cheapen you
He don't see you like i do
Beautiful not just for show
Time that someone let you know

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery
In his gallery

on editing life

as much as i want to delete that previous post.. i can't.. and i won't.
that's simply how life is.
we can't redo and edit what's already happened.
it hasn't really ended yet.. but i want to finally put a dot to it.
oh well, it wuz fun while it lasted.

that "moment" thingie again... hmph.

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2/11

is it possible to have several versions of a major event in your life?
for example, there was a 9/11 in the US.. i have 6/11 with my friends..
and i have my personal version of 2/11..
hahahaha
funny each time i think of the pattern.. coz my friends and i are actually teasing each other that there's a good chance there's a 2/11 coming up... and we had no expectations it was going to be on me!
but of course, you have no idea what i'm blabbing about.. hahahaha

6/11 or 2/11.. it's just how my friends and i refer to significant events..
say for example, the other weekend.. *sigh*
i had my own magical getaway
=)
i never really expected any of those things to happen..
not that this has a major effect on my existence.. hahaha..
maybe.. maybe not..
but this definitely is making me smile a little wider these days..
=)
jurine invited me, you see, to go somehwere south..
(and this is exactly the reason why i don't make my blog public!--- coz it's just too embarrassing!!!)
hahahaha..
anywayz... back to being southbound.. jurine was invited by a friend.. and i was just invited, in turn, by jurine..
she begged (demanded in fact! hehe..) but i gave in.. unregretfully, of course..
i think she has this thing for the guy who invited her.. it was a mutual thing, i think.. not sure..
and jurine rarely asks for any favor -- at all... and i don't exactly have the heart to deny her this one teeny favor now, do i??
a friend at all times, i was there.. hehehe... and let me repeat what i said earlier -- unregretfully
ahahahahahahahaha
it was a day of firsts for me.. first time to be with a group of mountaineers..
first time to travel away with only one friend.. but i gained five more.. =)
first time to dance to bon jovi songs (!) hahaha.. that was fun.
first time in two years to feel "kilig" again over a guy..
*sigh*
hahaha.. gosh. i feel so.. sOoo highschool.
he's not the typical looking guy in formals you would want to imagine to introduce to your parents..
he's beyond that.
char.
ahahaha... kaluod nako!
but of course, that's without mentioning that he already has a girlfriend.
*sigh*
i would love to narrate about that night's events and our trip.. but i wouldn't want to bore you to death..
take a look at our fun pics and judge for yourself..
smilesssss
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*sigh*
(again!)
he's really nice.
i'm not really that into him (right).. although i have to admit we have our moments.. but we definitely know where we stand in each other's lives.. he openly said that he likes me.. and the feeling is abandonedly reciprocated!
which isn't really a problem.. we're just opening our doors to possible friendships. Ü
right??
right!
whatever.
hahaha..
i just think he's nice and one cool guy.
(and he says the same about me!)
and i'm glad he's become my friend.

of course we cky-ssstt!
*duh*
*wink**wink**
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